For most of my adult life, I was unable to distinguish between the benevolent warrior in me from the heart-less soldier I had embodied.
Often unable to distinguish the difference between a healthy relationship from the battles that occurred inside of me.
Most often I was afraid to open my heart and let go of the need to protect it from being abandoned, ignored, and heartbroken.
Feeding the hungry, wounded warrior inside me that so desperately sought to feed and protect its internal fragmentation with ungrounded materialism, obsession with accumulation, infidelity, and empty external distractions.
Bouncing from one toxic relationship to the next further intensifying the unstable bridge between my heart and my unresolved emotions. Ignoring and not tending to my wounds, disregarding the reflection of my chaos in the world around me.
...but I went too far for too long.
Grasping. Clawing. Desperately seeking and overlooking the love that exists inside and around me.
In my last...
THE POWER OF SURRENDERING
Surrendering to something usually triggers signs of weakness or cowardly behavior, especially if we're not in touch with what is tangible and it's so hard to leave something that's very familiar, like a dysfunctional relationship, or if we lose our job, we find it very painful to deal with uncertainty. But this is where we get to practice peaceful surrendering of what is occurring in front of us.
It's accepting those likes and dislikes and doing away with what the mind wants and really reconnecting back to our hearts with that clarity. To tune in to what is being asked of us during that situation.
So the question is, what would you be doing differently if you didn't resist the situation if you didn't like or dislike something. How different would you be influenced by how you are living in this moment?
Surrendering is such an interesting concept and it's often very difficult for us, especially if we want to be able to control a situation because...
Honest question for you.
Do you find yourself trying to control how people view you?
What they think about you?
What they say about you?
How they experience you?
And is this cycle of serving others over yourself exhausting the hell out of you and zapping your energy?
If you’re nodding your head "yes" at your screen right now, but aren’t sure how to stop this sneaky habit, I have something I know you’re gonna dig.
What is it?
I was LIVE on Instagram. You can also watch it here on @divinesoulconnection to talk about it.
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Answer the following questions to help you understand why it feels like a discrepancy between your authentic self and the person you needed to be.
How much of our time do we waste trying to cover who we are when all we really want is to be loved? How much energy do we spend being angry, when underneath it all is the pain that our soul needs revealing? How much of our presence is consumed when we hide in fear of not having the faith to heal?
So often we hesitate to speak our mind, being direct, and allow our truth to flow. We’ve been so used to adding layers of comfort and protection that we often forget how to feel the world around us. So we contract. A thin layer becomes a full armor and we begin to feel lonely, overcompensate, disconnect, disassociate, and the best parts of us, dissolve, and over time diminishes our sense of joy and peace.
It can often feel like when we put a pair of gloves on a cold winter day. We touch things within our grasp, but we forget how they really feel. Almost holding too tightly as our “sense of feeling” has faded, like the warmth of our soul. Like a cold winter night, the...
The oscillation between progress & resistance is a natural part of our growth journey.
Moving towards the light of our awareness calls out those demons inside us that get in our way of progress.
Our wounded ego, our wounded inner child, our psyche does not want to give up the stories we've created in our minds.
This journey often triggers deep resistance within us.
This oscillation to resistance serves an important role, however. It reminds us of our human-ness; it tests our commitment; it highlights where we want to self-sabotage.
Our responsibility is to turn that awareness into insight and stand up to those forces inside us that want to give up and remain in our dysfunctional patterns because it's so much easier than doing the work of adulting.
This is what resistance looks like: FEAR, SHAME, GUILT, AGGRESSION, JUDGEMENT and many more that serve only one purpose: to protect that part of us, the ego that wants to resist transformation, growth, and eventually our divine...